to that someone: the moment you made your decision on the path you may lead on, you get yourself an one-way ticket. you shall walk down proudly even there may be horrendous obstacles all the way. remember, you are not defined by which choice you made, but defined by how you overcome the obstruction. why fritter away your time and effort drowning in thoughts of remorse when you should be focusing on the next step you are to take to thwart future regrets?
needless to say, the main loop in my life this year is the opening door to college life. there are numerous eloquent 'revolution' - or rather rebellion - fired up in these past few months. the introduction to city night life - cigarette, alcohol (more), nightclub - as well as the independence in life which thrills me most. albeit not fully independent in term of financial reliance, living on my own is simply awesome. but this is also when self-respect, self-worth and self-will begin to kick in some vital roles in life. strength of mind.
the most noteworthy newborn would be the friends i met in college! which totally opposed the presupposition i had - where people who study in Taylor's are all rich snobbish brats with toffee noses so high they will easily get stung by bees - which proved to be fictitious in my class and friends i meet around college (or at least to me). lol. they are all cool little monsters who'r pretty sincere and earnest, so far.
and you know there's friendship born at the moment when one person says to another "What! you, too? thought i was the only one." (you get what i mean) and it's a blessing when you can be stupid with them. ha-ha-ha. perhaps the most delightful friendships are those is much agreement, much disputation, and yet more personal liking.
there's one who's as crazy as i am. there's one who looks like a bitch but not the attitude. there's one whose mind is more polluted than mine. there's one who's always blur and blob. there's one who always trip and fall. there's one who's always with bright smile. there's one who's a retarded head. there's one who's the mommy. there's one who's the monkey. there's one who's a lala hamster. there's one who's sweet as strawberry. there's one who's nuts. there's one who is father's father. there's one who's a macho flintstone. there's one who's very down-to-earth. there's one whose cock can sing. there's one with an umbrella naturally. and there are more who are simply caring, lovely, affectionate, amorous, and fun! oh. and thank god they are all open-minded =)
who would expect that one could go through this much in just six months? friendships - newborn yet not raw - which is cherished and cosy, which also went through dumps and put on test, which actually further toughen and strengthen our relationship (i hope)...
and quote Thoreau "the most i can do for my friend is simply to be his friend. i have no wealth to bestow on him. if he knows that i am happy in loving him. he will want no other reward. is not friendship divine in this? "
this year has got me through sunlights and downpours. laughter and tears. gaining and losing. love. emotional and distant. but i will always awake every morning with devout thanksgiving for my friends, the old and the new. rain comes and go. sun comes and go. passerby comes and go. lover comes and go, too. but there will always be a few friends who are always there, staying, no matter the distance.
a brief candle; both ends burning.
an endless mile; a bus wheel turning.
a friend to share the lonesome times.
a handshake and a sip of beer.
so say it loud and let it ring.
we are all a part of everything.
the future. present. and the past.
and if someone asks what great lesson have you learnt throughout this year. i would confidently answer "depth of friendship does not depend or measure on length of acquaintance."
i love you. my friends. old and new
Nsxon x
